I’m not immune to what it’s like to live with walls around my heart. Life has provided moments of heartbreak and disappointment along the way and I’ve had to learn some hard lessons. Over the years I learned how to guard my heart and not to get too attached.
While these defense mechanisms protect me from potential pain, they also make it harder to create genuine connections. By closing myself off I’ve noticed that I never truly feel comfortable sharing who I am. In order to maintain control I can only show so much of my heart.
I was reading my devotional and it was discussing being vulnerable with Jesus. As I read it I started crying because I knew this message was directed right at me. While I had built a wall to keep people from getting close to me, Jesus was showing me that I was keeping Him out too.
A Blocked Heart
I examined my relationship with Jesus noticed that I would base my approach Him the same way I would an interaction with another human. I would hold back from sharing what was really on my heart out of fear of being rejected, dismissed, or disappointed. In return I didn’t know how to completely express myself or surrender to Him.
A wall is effective in protecting our hearts, but it lacks in helping us develop personal relationships with our Creator. The divide we’ve placed between us and Christ limits our ability to mature in a relationship with Him. We must let His love and out faith overshadow our fear of being vulnerable.
The bible repeatedly mentions how our Father loves us and shows us mercy. In Isaiah 55 He tells us that His thoughts and ways are higher than ours. So we can’t compare having a relationship with Him to the ones we have with one another.
Jesus’ death on the cross tore the barrier between that separated us from our Father. By His death and resurrection we now able to approach our Father and know Him. We just have to let down our walls, let go of our fear, and take hold of His love.
Give Your Heart To Jesus
While letting down our walls down can take time to do, know it’s worth it when it comes to Jesus. I had to surrender and trust Him with my thoughts and feelings. Then I had to learn to be still, remove the distractions, and listen to His loving guidance.
A couple of methods that help me open up to Jesus and lower my walls is being honest. I tell Him what I’m thinking, how I feel, about my day, and ask for Him to share with me too. Having that open communication with Him develops trust because it’s my way of sharing my heart.
Another thing that I’ve been doing is spending time with Him because what better way is there to get to know someone? We have dinner, go to the store, and I make a point of being in His company. The BEST way to do this is by reading the bible because it tells who Jesus is, and who you are in Him.
We don’t have to worry or be afraid with Him because He’s our redeemer. His love never fails or gives up on us, and because He created us He already knows us. Despite what we’ve experienced in the past, it’s important to understand that Jesus’ love for us has never changed.
He did His part so we could have access and the chance to know Him. Now it’s up to us to take a step of faith and surrender our hearts to Jesus.