When it was time to start saying goodbye all I could do was cry. My loved one has left this world, but I felt that apart of me had died. So many people came to see you and share memories about how beautiful a person you were. They spoke about how amazing of a teacher you were and how much you loved God. You touched generations with your love, kindness, and devotion to make this world a better place.
When it was time for the family to speak, I was too emotional to talk. I let the rest of the family speak about you while I sobbed silently. We buried you on a sunny April day amongst your family. Next to your mom, dad, and siblings just like you wanted to be. As we said our last good-bye I could find the words to say. So many thoughts and memories were running through my head that day. I couldn’t imagine not talking to you, or hearing you laugh once more, or your warm hug when I come to see you.
I didn’t get to tell you what I really wanted to say, so I felt that I missed my chance until I found the courage to do it today. This may not a traditional way, or an audience of people who knew you well, but I know that you would want me to tell others about how wonderful you were.
You were more than a grandmother to me from the day that I was born. You played the role of my mom, friend, teacher throughout my life and helped me become who I am. You never gave up on me, and encouraged me all the time. You believed in my dreams even when I didn’t and knew that one day I would be something great. You taught me how to read, write, do math, better than any of my teachers would take the time to do. I owe my love to reading and writing all to you.
I will never forget the talks we had and how you told me about the world. From you I learned to be a dignified woman and to seek to learn something everyday. You taught me that I’m capable of anything, and to always put God first. Together we traveled during the summer, and I will always remember our trips. You blessed me with so many life experiences that I carry with me everyday.
Words can not express how much I truly love you. I miss you so much Big Mama, and I know that I will see you again someday.