The main reasons I started this love cleanse is because I accepted the lie that I have too many broken places. I believed that my brokenness made me unlovable. Even though someone told me this out of anger, accepted this because I didn’t know who I was. I took on their opinion as my truth and I took on the idea of never finding love.
Three years later those words have never left me, even though I thought I moved on. I’ve come to see my broken places and flaws as too much for anyone to overlook. So I took it upon myself to close myself off to the potential of ever finding love.
Separating myself from that dream of having a family feels unnatural. How can I deny something that’s always been my dream? It’s one thing to do it while I’m working things out. I just don’t see how someone can overlook these scars and see beauty.
Since I’ve had more time to read I’ve found myself reading books by Heather Lindsey, Sarah Jakes, and Mandy Hale. Their books are amazing and have transformed my thinking. I now understand what conditional and unconditional love means. They’ve shown me how much God loves me and He will bring someone who will love me too.
Embracing Our Brokenness
The scars from our broken places show our strength and we should not be ashamed of them. Our brokenness can draw us closer to God in times of trouble. If we hand over our broken places to Him then He can give us strength and use it for our good. Plus we all have broken places, it’s all in how we view them.
This process has shown me that we have to put our life, trust, and faith in God’s hands. We have to daily remind ourselves that He loves us. He can form us into best versions of ourselves despite the flaws that we possess. His loves for us never changes and He sees us differently than people do. They see our imperfections, but He sees our hearts.
God calls me a masterpiece and doesn’t see or identify me by my brokenness. If He can love me knowing everything about me then why should I worry about finding that in someone else? Just because that person didn’t see the value in me doesn’t mean someone else wouldn’t.
I see that my broken places have brought me to a great love. The love I have now is better than anything this world could ever offer.