I never quite understood what loving myself meant until one day I realized I didn’t. Admitting this to myself was difficult but saying it out loud was even harder. How does a woman with family, friends and a relationship with God find herself in such a place?
Easy, I let life happen. In other words, I allowed myself to always be last to everyone else’s needs. I put relationships at the top of my list of priorities and got lost in what I thought was love. I accepted what I didn’t want in hopes that I would eventually get the things that I wanted. I allowed my relationship with God to wither as I struggled to keep unimportant things in my life.
Self love is a never ending journey that I travel each day. Small things like watching what I eat and maintaining a healthy body is one of the ways I show myself love. I take part in things that bring me joy. I help others and motivate them to follow their dreams and live their best life. I think many women would be surprised that some of the things that they do is due to a lack of love for themselves.
For years, I didn’t know how I was ruining my own self-esteem by not treating myself like the child of God that I now know that I am. Sometimes we just need a reminder that we are loved despite how we may feel. I once thought that I was unworthy of love, but I now know better. God created us all in His image and He makes no mistakes. Proverbs 4:23 is one of my favorite scriptures about self-love:
Reading scriptures like these reminds me of my purpose. These days, I love me some ME! If I can help someone else find their love, I’m up for the challenge. And yes, it is a challenge; especially if self-hate is all you’ve ever known. To look in the mirror and recognize yourself and love what you see is truly a blessing.