My attitude towards life lately has been that I no longer have the energy to fight for things I want or need. Years of fighting and only winning maybe half the battles left me in a state of exhaustion. Last year was the last fight I could engage in after my grandmother passing away and losing my long-term relationship last year. Since then I’ve been letting life happen because I didn’t have it in me to do anything else.
Over these past few months I’ve grown accustom to being content; but being content isn’t the same as being happy. Being content is where many people settle because its neutral and a comfort zone. I was comfortable and didn’t have any plans of moving until I saw that if I didn’t move I was going to be in the same place next year. Everything that I was praying for wasn’t going to happen if I didn’t get up and start fighting for it.
I heard a story about a child who plants a seed in his backyard and waited for the tree to grow. Everyday he would press his face against the window looking for the tree, and after week he was upset that nothing had changed. He cried to his parents because he didn’t understand why the seed didn’t produce a tree like it was supposed to. When his parents asked him if he ever watered the seed that’s when he realized that it would never become a tree if he didn’t put forth the work.
What I learned is that we may get tired or even knocked out from the fights that we face, but we can’t stay down. Everything that we want to achieve takes work and putting forth effort. If you want a career, a family, or anything then work towards it and nourish that seed so it will grow. Your job is to just commit to being present in the fight.
I have such big dreams and aspirations for my life and I don’t want to look back years from now and say it could have all been real if I just got back in the ring and fought for it. Nothing comes to people who just sit around waiting for things to happen. I had to discover that there’s a difference between fighting and not being in the ring at all. Never let life knock you down so hard that you’re not willing to keep going; if you keep fighting you can achieve all your dreams.